Life on the other side

Well another day and infact week of housewife/motherdom done… and I am enjoying a hot coffee and was just about to go and have a bath when LP annonces he is off the use the loo and he may be a while….. This is infact the story of my life….

I often feel like I am bottom of the list….. I come after 2 children 1 breadwinner a mobile phone, a laptop, and a goldfish…. under all that lot is me, just quietly mopping and cleaning and feeding and washing and tidying away (maybe not that quietly really?)… It’s got pretty bad of late not bothering to brush my hair wearing the oddest selection of clothes a lot of which are still maternity…. It’s supposed to be a new year all upbeat and empowered?

somehow I have morphed into some other woman? I look like Nora Batty and Compo’s love child if she had been raised in a cellar in Royston Vasy wearing a red Tina Turner wig…… don’t worry people the epilator is on charge…..

I had my bath, tired to relax but it’s a bit tricky with Buzz Lightyear stareing and smiling at you from the end of the bath, but Buzz turned his back, and a glass of wine later relaxing done, reflecting done…….

I have a choice……. this morning I chose to be sad, tired, worn down, fat, unkempt, weepy and quite pathetic… (LP even offered to go out in the blizzard to buy choclate in an attempt to chear me up)

and now? well I am not feeling that great, but I am not feeling that bad either….. I am not beyond help, I can loose weight, tame the Tina Turner do, Stop wearing maternity clothes, try and find an identity?

I think this is where my problem is…..I am not just Mummy? and I am definatly not a yummy Mummy (I hate that expession!! it only comes from Mum’s who say things like is’nt it rewarding… and Phelix only eats organic…..and they have spotless children, and are dressed imactualy and you want to beat them to death with thier designer pushchairs) I however am nomally sporting the latest in streatched tracksuit bottoms and a half eaten crumpet…..I think that’s going to be big next season…… anyhow, back to my identity….. Under all this, BC (Before Children) there was a woman I quite liked? Leah, she was funny, liked having fun and adventure and always had an opinion, was always curvey but knew how to dress them!

I am not sure where she is now? Hey Leah, if you are reading this call me, we should catch up!